I wanted to be a teacher for as long as I can remember. I was the kid who made all the other kids in the neighborhood play school and of course my favorite toy was my blackboard and chalk! I spent decades going to college, teaching school, going to grad school while teaching, and loved everything about it all.
I was also the kid who struggled with anxiety. I remember having my first panic attack when I was 8. I had no idea what it was at the time but after a few years, connected the dots and understood what had happened. Depression followed and I remember being relieved because it was so much easier than dealing with the racing thoughts, not being able to breathe, and heart beating out of my chest. When I did reach out to an adult in my life they told me that this is how I was and I would have to learn to live with it. So, I did. I thought that there wasn’t any other way. So when depression came, I became quiet in my life and when anxiety arose I did what I could to try to deal with it. It took me years and a lot of heartbreaking stories later to realize it doesn’t need to be like that. There are ways to help reframe thoughts, live in the moment, and live a peaceful life. I have been part of several mindfulness groups, retreats, taken many courses and am continually involved in programs to teach mindfulness to youth. This is MY passion. This is MY purpose. This is MY why.
My struggle with anxiety and depression is not something that I have shared with many. I know that in order to truly help others find their MY, I need to completely embrace mine. I know what it feels like to live in darkness but I also know how empowering it feels to be able to use what I've learned to live a life of peace. Even when life isn't peaceful.
"Be the person you needed when you were younger"
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